Familiar

木已 Muyi

I went from someone who never refused others to become someone who only knows how to say no.

All hope has vanished; they just want me to kneel down and beg them.

Confidence, pride, reputation,

All gone, leaving only disappointment in people.

Distrustful hatred, distrustful love,

All the blame falls on me; I'm not a gentleman.

But I am a good person; they forced me to become a devil.

Becoming someone different, there's no turning back now.

Time is running out, I just want to get off work quickly.

Please don't bother me anymore; I have too much work.

Your attitude is bad; I don't want to help others anymore.

Because I feel very disappointed, I never learn how to love someone.

This is the laughter from the adults, and I have already gotten used to it.

The hidden suffering is always behind the smile; if you don't like to smile, then don't.

But I can't control myself; this emotion is very special.

My name is a useless man, who cares which department he comes from.

No one cares, and no one wants to marry me.

Alone till old age, working hard all along, but lacking a woman's love.

They took away my luck, leaving only courage.

I'm too lazy to compete with them; I'm just wasting my time.

I like to read, especially horror novels.

Kids fantasize about killing everyone with a gun.

Such bloody stories can comfort me.

I don't need the comfort of others; I can comfort myself.

I have the ability to live, and I don't want to waste time.

Wasted all the efforts of yesterday, just want to see your smile.

Please don't pity me, don't consider being with me.

The hot blood in my heart hasn't changed; it's still the heart that loves you.

This flavor belongs to you; I don't care about anyone else.

Whether you have children or not, whether you're happy or not,

It's all none of my concern now; tears fall.

At this moment, I'm still alone; I've completed my mission.

I won't wipe your tears anymore; it's not my task.

I don't want to care anymore, and please don't lie to me again.

I enjoy writing songs for someone, putting all the words I want to say into the lyrics.

I don't care if it sounds good or not, I'll give you what you want.

My level is too low, I can't play with you.

Enough time, I need to return to the future.

Don't bother reading my boring lyrics; no one's singing them anyway.

Taking care of everything, but neglecting myself.

Laughing, crying,

It's still the same, leaving me with shadows.

I gave you all my love, yet you want me to stay away from you.

The helpless pain, even after fifty years, can't be healed.

My mind is filled with you, your presence, your smile.

Uncontrollable emotions, how do I solve them?

The ending of the story is always so sad, and I've grown used to it.

Crying alone at night, this feeling is very familiar.